Enough Tea

Hey y’all!! It’s been a long time! I pray all is well with you guys. Life has been life; up, down, and all around. I’m so blessed to still be breathing and living this thing called life one day at a time. That’s something I don’t take for granted today or any other day for that matter! I don’t have a long post today, I just felt led to let you know that

YOU ARE ENOUGH!

Isn’t it crazy, how you can feel on top of the world on moment and the next, lower than dirt? It’s nuts how one moment you have the highest of high confidence and then someone utters something totally opposite of our thoughts and BAM! You begin to question everything you thought of yourself. I’ve never thought very highly of myself. I’ve always considered myself pretty average. It’s so crazy, because I’ve never been anything but uplifted by my parents and family, but I’ve never felt like I had very much to offer. Both my parents and my brother have this very “entrepreneurial” spirit. They are all very successful business owners. Me on the other hand have always been in the support role. For a long time, I thought that was a problem, I felt I didn’t belong because I had no real desire to have my own business. The one time I did step out and attempt to start a staffing agency for childcare centers, I failed. That was all the reason I needed to step back into my comfort zone of being support, behind the scenes. Guess what… I discovered that being behind the scenes is my niche. Watching others succeed and knowing I had a hand in it, that’s my thing. I always felt I didn’t have that “it factor” to be in the lime light, (truth be told, I don’t like being in the lime light, but I like attention, confusing. I know, imagine how I feel, LOL), but I’ve come to realize that I don’t have to be the star to be enough. I am more than enough to be what I need to be and accomplish goals, even if it is by supporting others.

Of course, in my marital situation, that was a whole other kick in the gut. Talk about feeling less than, not enough, rejected, dejected, and every other kind of low. Being on the receiving end of an affair that eventually produced children was a huge blow to my already very fragile self-esteem. It has taken quite a few pity parties, some “get a grip” conversations with family and friends, plenty of nights of praying and begging and pleading with God to fix my whole entire life, and 2 years and counting of therapy for me to realize that I AM ENOUGH! No, I am not perfect, as a matter of fact I’m still working hard to forgive myself for the part I played in my divorce, but I am worthy of love, I am worthy of happiness, I am worthy to be chosen, I am worthy of peace. I am enough for the person who God has for me. I am enough for my children, my family and friends. And I am learning to be enough and unapologetically so for myself!

Yes, it can be difficult to feel less than when certain circumstances in life happen, but I’m here to tell you that you are fearfully and wonderfully made by God (Psalms 139:14). He makes no mistakes. In those moments of self-doubt, low self-worth, or just feelings of not being enough, take a deep breath, say a prayer, hold your head high and move forward. Don’t stay in that low place. Staying in that low place can take you to places that you, as a child of God, don’t have to go. If you fail, it’s ok… Try again! If the relationship ends, it’s ok… there’s someone out there for you! If you didn’t land that job… it’s ok, keep looking! The point is to never give up. Keep pressing forward and never forget that

YOU ARE ENOUGH!!