Faith Tea

First giving honor to God, who’s the head of my life (as most people used to start their testimony, lol). I’m in the place I’m in today only by the grace of God and the lessons that were instilled in me as a child. Being raised in the church, I always knew where my help came from and always knew who to turn to in times of need. I was always in church! Whether it was for girl scouts, dance, school or services 3-4 times a week. Sis, I couldn’t run from God if I wanted to. As it typically goes, as soon as church wasn’t forced, I didn’t go. The sense of guilt was there at times, but not enough to make me attend services regularly. Then I’d start with the promises to God, Lord if you get me out of this situation, I promise I’ll go to church. Did I ever go? Sure... sometimes. Not nearly enough as I should though.

While many years were spent making promises and starting/stopping regular church attendance, I must say that the past 3 years I’ve been much more dedicated and focused on truly pursuing the Lord with much more passion. What I’ve learned is that God is just waiting for us to seek Him, just ask for His help. To give Him the credit of being the all-knowing God He is and let Him do what He does best. Does that mean that life will be peaches and cream? Girl please... not at all… as a matter of fact often times at the moment you decide to fully surrender to God that the enemy attacks so hard! I’m in a wilderness right now that I’m faithfully praying and seeking God to see me through. My faith has been tested and I’ve questioned God so many times asking why me??? But the better question is, why not me? What makes me so much better that I can’t be tested, broken, and knocked down? NOTHING!!! Remember the fairytale complex I told you about??? Oh yeah, in my mind I was exempt from certain things happening to me. So, imagine the shock and pain I felt just having that mind set alone when life came and took me all the way out. I’m talking about down and out sis! No light to be seen… absolute and utter darkness! But let me tell you about the God I serve; He's NEVER left my side. In all of my foolishness and craziness, He was always there just waiting for me to seek Him. I am in a place of much more peace because I’ve let go and I’m letting the Lord guide me. Are things better for me?? Absolutely, and it’s getting better every day. I know that as I continue to seek God’s perfect will for my life, I will be good! Do you hear me??? I’ll be filled with joy that no one but He can give me!

You may be thinking, “How do I begin a relationship with Him”? I spend at least 30 minutes to an hour everyday praying, reading my bible and devotionals, journaling, and listening to gospel/worship music. I make it a priority to take the time necessary to build a relationship just as I would with a friend, spouse, or child. Now can I quote scripture and tell you exactly where to go for a certain topic? Heck no, but that doesn’t mean that I’m in any less of a relationship with Him than the person who can recite the bible. I literally have conversations with God all day, like to the point where I know He’s probably like “I have millions of other people seeking me, T, give me a break!” LOL… But that’s the beauty of having that relationship… He’s always there ... just call His name!

That’s my faith tea… your turn to spill yours sis! What's your faith lesson?