Perseverance Tea

Hey y’all hey!! It’s been a long time! I hope you all are well. All is going well over here! I am still taking things one day at a time, but I’m persevering. As they saying goes, “I’m not where I want to be, but I’m not where I used to be!” I hope that life is moving along for each of you in a way in which you’re pleased and if it isn’t, CHANGE IT!

As I think about where my journey started and where I am today, I am thankful that I’ve persevered. I had days that were extremely hard, as recently as last week, but most days are good, great even. On most days I’m able to look past my past and look toward the future. I understand that life is full of ups and downs, but as long as I keep looking forward, I’ll be ok.

I’ve celebrated my 40th birthday, went on my very first out of country girls trip, and even broaden my horizons business wise. I’ve started focusing more on my financial wellbeing as well as continuing to figure out who T is. I've enjoyed spending time with myself, sitting on my patio with a glass of wine, working in my yard, and listening to autobiographies on audiobooks. I tell you all this because this time 2 years ago I never thought I’d be here. This time 2 years ago I couldn’t see my future at all without getting teary eyed because I knew it wouldn’t include what I thought my relationship with the father of my children or our family should look like. I was absolutely devastated this time two years ago.

I am getting better with not feeling down when think about the failure of my marriage or the breakup of my family. I can be around other couples and not wish it was me. I even, just for a quick moment, entertained dating again. While I’m not ready for that step yet, the fact that I can even think about it means that I’m beginning to accepting where my life is and understand that I must get to a point where I move on. I am proud to say that I finally feel like I’m getting closer to my healing.

I understand that life will happen however it’s meant to happen, and I just have to roll with it. I’ve decided to not focus on what I lost, but what I will gain from taking the time to get to know myself, strengthening my relationship with the Lord, and understanding my worth. I will be able to give the best version of myself to everyone around me, but most importantly to myself and my children.

Life will undoubtedly get rough, but if you have the tenacity it takes to get through your rough patches, it’ll all be worth it. You’ll have a story to tell and people who you will need to help along your journey. Never give up! Keep smiling, keep moving forward, and keep doing what it takes to make yourself your very best self!