Responsibil-a-tea

We all have responsibilities, right? Bills, career, family, etc. I think responsibility is the worst part of “adulting”. I remember when I was a teenager and just kept saying “I can’t wait ‘til I’m grown” or “when I’m grown, I won’t have a curfew”, etc. Listen, I’d give anything to be a teenager again with little to no responsibility, no one to answer to or account for. To go back in time, if even for a little while, cause this “adulting” crap ain’t where it’s at!

But what if I told you that responsibility is more than just adulting. Responsibility is more than just going to work, paying bills and taking care of your family. I think we all have a responsibility to one another as well. I have a responsibility to share my truths with the hope of helping someone not fall into the same pit falls of life that I did. Or even if they do fall, my story is proof of survival.

To be 100% transparent, I do have my apprehensions about sharing my truth. The truth hurts... my truth hurts. I’m still learning how to accept my truth as my new way of life. So, my truths, without going into too much detail in this post (gotta keep you coming back, LOL) are as follows:

I’ve worked for my family business pretty much my entire adult life

I have a bachelor’s and master’s degree that I feel like I’m wasting

I’m married (for 12 years)

I have 2 amazing children

I’ve been cheated on

I’ve cheated (after I was cheated on)

My husband doesn’t currently live in our home

My husband has children outside of our marriage

I am fighting like hell to save my marriage

I’ve been in therapy on and off during my marriage and I am currently seeing a therapist weekly

Do y’all understand just how difficult all of this is for me to put out there for the world to know?!? But if I don’t, I will have gone through all of this for nothing. What I’m learning from my pain is that I have the awesome responsibility to help other women or men as individuals and maybe even couples who are traveling down the same path. I may have the ability to help stop things before they happen or help repair them once events have already taken place.

Whew… this post took a lot out of me…. I am so proud and nervous at the same time! But it’s out there now and I know I’m not the only one dealing with the curve balls of life! And please don’t feel sorry for me! I am so incredibly blessed to be on this road. Without the hurt and pain that was caused to me and that I caused I wouldn’t have this blog, I wouldn’t be as strong as I am today, I would be ok with having a pitty party, and truthfully I wouldn’t be able to take a good hard look at myself understanding the fault I have played in every aspect of my life. The most important thing I have gained from this though, is my growth in my relationship with The Lord, Jesus Christ (see Faith Tea blog post). I can unequivocally say that I don’t know where I’d be in this moment of my life without Him.

Sis, if something has been placed on your heart to share, then you should. You never know whose life your story may save. It’s your RESPONSIBIL-A-TEA!

Join me in sharing your truths. Remember this is a judgement free zone. If I can share my truth in all its glory, then you most certainly can share yours!! (And yes, I will be delving deeper into each of my truth’s in future posts… stay tuned!)